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Do you ever notice synchronicity in your life? For example, you think of a person and suddenly they’re calling or texting you? Or, you can’t get a song out of your head and when you turn on the radio, there it is? Or, you think of a name, a movie, or incident that you haven’t thought of for a long time and suddenly it’s the first topic on the news as you t

urn on the TV, or someone you run into brings it up?

So, what’s actually going on here? Are we tapping into some kind of universal truth? Are we receiving some knowledge from the future? When it’s between two people (my daughter and I have this dynamic between us) who’s the sender and who’s the receiver of this future information right before the phone rings? To be honest I’m not sure but I have some thoughts.

These moments happen a lot in my life, especially over the past ten years or so during which time I was trying to find my way back to something I lost, and wandered off my path to do so. In retrospect I see now how fragmented I’d been trying to please myself and others, trying to make myself into something I’m not, feeling like it was all wrong but doing it anyway. Sound familiar?

When these moments started to happen, I began to refer to them as “doubles” because the repetitive nature of how it happens - I think it and then either it happens or gets reflected back to me at least twice within 24 to 48 hours. As a matter of fact, it just happened as I sat down to write! I was looking up the symbolism of Deer in my treasured Native American Medicine Card book because a Deer had crossed my path yesterday. Whenever an animal crosses my path I run home and grab my Medicine Cards and book, a magical and inspiring Native American guide to the beautiful symbolism of all kinds of animals. And it’s uncanny how accurate it is! A compilation of powerful and inspiring stories from many tribes, it helps us understand our connection to Nature, Mother Earth and all her creatures and is a window into the Oneness of all life.

I sometime use the cards and book as a means to get more information about something I’m experiencing in my life that needs a new perspective, or to find out more about an issue I’m having that needs to be resolved. The way it works is you ask the question while shuffling the cards and then you pick one. Often a card will jump out of the deck and that’s the card that I’m meant to see. How do I know that? I’ve reshuffled, asked the question again and picked a card and it is always the same as the first one that jumped out. Incredible really, and it’s what gives me even more faith in the spiritual world because of what it has to offer us – the truth, among other things.

But if I see an animal when I’m out and about, I always run home and simply look it up and read about it. After a Deer crossed my path yesterday, I finally got around to looking it up this afternoon. I also recall having a dream last night about a fawn, spotted and sweet, and I don’t usually remember my dreams (not in the past few years anyway) so this Deer theme is pretty strong, as if she really wants me to get her message.

After reading about Deer and understanding her symbolism (which I’ll share with you in a bit), I finally sat down to either blog or make a video, something I’ve been procrastinating about for a few days. When I’m coming up with ideas, I like to play Hertz music (also known as Solfeggio Frequencies) for whatever frequency I need to have more of in order to feel calmer, more empowered or to simply get out of my own way (ie. Overthinking). You can find Hz music on YouTube in many frequencies that can fit whatever it is you’re needing to feel more of, from 174 Hz frequency that removes physical and energetic pain, to 963Hz frequency to promote connection to source and oneness. There are frequencies for sleep, healing, removing negative energy, opening one’s heart, mental clarity, joy – pretty much anything along those lines.

When I sat down to write after looking up Deer, I opened my laptop to the YouTube Hz music I was listening to yesterday, but instead of starting that particular video up again another video on the side bar caught my attention. When I chose it and pressed play, the first image shown on the screen was that of two Deer, Fawns, with spots. These are the moments I’m referring to that just can’t be explained using our linear rational brains, but once it starts to happen in one’s life, it feels like an invitation to go beyond what we think we know, and have faith that the universe really is with us all the time, helping us to grow, find connection and reach our goals. That’s how I see it anyway. So that lead me to play the music and finally start writing.

What was Deer trying to teach me? Her message is short and sweet and a little surprising given how delicate and passive they are, although as I write I realize those qualities can go two ways. Let me explain. Deer’s symbolism is “Gentleness” which isn’t all that surprising. It’s about how she earned that title and how she uses it is. The Native American tale in the book is about the day that Fawn heard Great Spirit calling to her from the top of Sacred Mountain as she started up the trail that led there. She didn’t know that a scary and horrible demon was guarding the way to Great Spirit’s Lodge, trying to keep all the beings of creation from connecting to Great Spirit. By scaring them and telling them Great Spirit didn’t want to be disturbed, the demon felt all powerful because he caused all creatures to fear him.

Even in the face of this fire breathing and terrifying bully of a demon, instead of feeling frightened and intimidated Fawn stayed curious. Not scared or angry just curious and said gently to the demon, “Please let me pass. I’m on the way to see Great Spirit”. Her eyes were filled with love and compassion which astounded the demon. No matter how hard he tried he could not frighten her because her love had penetrated his ugly, hardened heart.

Fawn’s persistent love and gentleness caused the demon’s heart to soften and his hardness melted away. It is because of Deer that all of Great Spirit’s children can reach Sacred Mountain without having to feel fear blocking their way. As a result, Deer teaches us to use the power of gentleness to touch the hearts and minds of those who are wounded and trying to keep us from Sacred Mountain, the space of compassion and divine guidance. The spots on the Fawn remind us that when both the light and the dark are truly loved, this creates gentleness and safety for those who are seeking peace, something many of us are seeking these days. It’s not about fighting or rejecting the darkness, but about embracing it and allowing it to coexist, as we expand and grow in order to hold them both.

The book goes on to encourage us to apply gentleness to whatever situation is presenting itself to us, to stop pushing for change and accept what is in others, and in our circumstances. Once we are able to be warm and caring like a “summer breeze”, we can connect to Sacred Mountain/Nature/Source to feel more centered and serene, and to be more open to Great Spirit’s guidance as well.

I hadn’t realized that this was the message I needed in order to feel better about a relationship in my life, but now I know and will apply what Deer has taught me to my next interaction. It can also be helpful when dealing with our current political situation which is rife with injustice, cruelty, greed and all manners of scary and harmful human behavior perpetrated by the “wounded” among us. With gentleness, we can melt the fear that stands between us and our hopes and dreams, as well as what stands in the way of having deeper and more loving relationships with people who are either difficult, or with whom we have a complicated history. Softness, gentleness and love is the answer, and regardless of how obvious it may seem in retrospect, this needed to be reinforced in me, and it was.

So maybe my “doubles” are messages to me that I’m in the flow of my life and that things are going exactly as they’re supposed to (whether good or bad), and/or a reminder that I am not alone and am always loved. All I know is these moments always put me in a place of awe, and help me to remember that life is more than meets the eye and that we really are living in a magical universe. And the gentler, and more loving we can be, and the more tolerant we can become and the higher we can go as we replace fear with love, and add a little courage. If Deer can do it, so can we!

For anyone who is interested in purchasing this book and deck of cards the title is: “Medicine Cards – The Discovery of Power Through the ways of the Animals” by Jamie Sams and David Carson.

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